Fear, selfishnessness, and the meaning inbetween …

Have you ever felt the people you care about the most push you aside? Their words, mannerisms, and thoughts clearly written in their eyes but they continue to believe that no one knows the pain they feel? Their true feelings hidden in the linings of their actions but never fully being confronted.Why continue to be unhappy & discontent? You only miss out on the glory of what is life. Life is a cycle and people realize it too late before they can grasp some remnants of contentment …

Pain. Why must we be afraid of it? The thought of being hurt and feeling pain is the contrivance of the mind. Each person’s experience is custom to their inner beliefs and fear. Fear of the unknown. Fear of failure. Fear of success. Fear of happiness. Fear of Anger. Fear of Sadness … Fear of discovering the depths of our soul ….

We are also afraid of speaking to ourselves. Too afraid to feel, to express, to relax …

I know you are going through something and I saw it in what you told me. But I am afraid you are still a flower closed upon itself. You are like me in so many ways save for a few unsavory qualities but why won’t you revel in discovery? disperse your notions of what is right and wrong. disregard what you believe in and LISTEN for once and stop refuting it.

Learning is the hardest path that we all endeavor to walk because we need to reach a higher destination, elevate our minds, and to maximize our happiness. If you can’t even define what makes you happy, how can you expect anyone else to know what you need? let alone what you want. How can you be afraid of letting your emotions loose when you already emit a vibe of reproach and you fail to see how easy an attitude can change…

You allow yourself to sink into a despair than no one can penetrate so silent and unrelenting you are. But it is fear that is holding you back and the demons you see swarming around your confidence is draining who you are barring you from becoming who you can be …

But enough. Pain is what I see and I cannot bear to be around it. It is like tearing my eyes away from a lovely lonely child malnourished from lack of love of self and love of life. We are not emotions, we create emotions contrary to what you desire. Passion stems from a person’s will to live and live beyond the definitions and restrictions we place on ourselves. You make the world what you will and you will be a much happier person than the ghost I see in your eyes.

I write this for both of you. Don’t take anything for granted and fix what you will despite what you believe you protect your pride for.  It is a simple act of love and courage to embrace humility and you will feel more than you think you do. Maybe that’s what’s missing?

I feel you are so easily disappointed that the things you do fails to resonate how you imagine it. One valuable and universal statement I believe in is

It’s not who you are that holds you back, it’s who you think you’re not.  ~Author Unknown

Stop being a debbie downer and get on with it. Be inspired to be different and love who you are, not someone you’re obviously not. I know you for who are and who you are waiting to be, but no one said the journey is easy to self-discovery.

Each and every person has flaws and what matters the most is your resilience, your innovations, and your desire to live as deeply as the ocean contends to with it’s calm but deceptive waves …

dig deep and you’ll find who you are and that you are meant for great things…

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What are people surprised to learn about you?

There are few things I would like to share …

  • I read books .. not just fictions but literature and novels. – Thank you Mrs. Rose and Mrs. Hall for my education in English Literature and the love of figurative language. Twice I’ve been perceived of not being smart and erudite based on the selection of my reading selections [ My mom is an avid paperback reader and I’ve acquired the hobby of reading romance novels, woe is me] and It really cut me to the quick that someone would make such an assumption!
  • I write … not just ramblings and scribbles but poetry and sayings and philosophies. I am not the best writer but I let it out.
  • I can curl my tongue? Actually I cannot for the life of me think of what I was going to write, but alas it is 1:34am and I cannot follow through with this post.
I shall edit it but I hope this succinct enough to display what I must feel about these things…