Happiness is …

… not that ice cream cone you get to eat all by yourself … it’s the melting of it all over your fingers on that hot summer day and laughing with your friends.

…. not an event or something to look forward to … it’s stumbling upon good people and spontaneous opportunity.

… not the celebrating of your birthday … but the people who come together and celebrate another year of life with you.

… finding a way to not look for happiness but to put yourself in every possible pathway or situation that leads you to it.

… not the material things you accumulate, but the memories and feelings invoked from such items.

… love in a teacup with the aroma wafting towards your nose and building up a small knot in your stomach and pulls on strings of nostalgia.

… you. looking at me just like the first time before you even knew you were going to love me forever.


Fear, selfishnessness, and the meaning inbetween …

Have you ever felt the people you care about the most push you aside? Their words, mannerisms, and thoughts clearly written in their eyes but they continue to believe that no one knows the pain they feel? Their true feelings hidden in the linings of their actions but never fully being confronted.Why continue to be unhappy & discontent? You only miss out on the glory of what is life. Life is a cycle and people realize it too late before they can grasp some remnants of contentment …

Pain. Why must we be afraid of it? The thought of being hurt and feeling pain is the contrivance of the mind. Each person’s experience is custom to their inner beliefs and fear. Fear of the unknown. Fear of failure. Fear of success. Fear of happiness. Fear of Anger. Fear of Sadness … Fear of discovering the depths of our soul ….

We are also afraid of speaking to ourselves. Too afraid to feel, to express, to relax …

I know you are going through something and I saw it in what you told me. But I am afraid you are still a flower closed upon itself. You are like me in so many ways save for a few unsavory qualities but why won’t you revel in discovery? disperse your notions of what is right and wrong. disregard what you believe in and LISTEN for once and stop refuting it.

Learning is the hardest path that we all endeavor to walk because we need to reach a higher destination, elevate our minds, and to maximize our happiness. If you can’t even define what makes you happy, how can you expect anyone else to know what you need? let alone what you want. How can you be afraid of letting your emotions loose when you already emit a vibe of reproach and you fail to see how easy an attitude can change…

You allow yourself to sink into a despair than no one can penetrate so silent and unrelenting you are. But it is fear that is holding you back and the demons you see swarming around your confidence is draining who you are barring you from becoming who you can be …

But enough. Pain is what I see and I cannot bear to be around it. It is like tearing my eyes away from a lovely lonely child malnourished from lack of love of self and love of life. We are not emotions, we create emotions contrary to what you desire. Passion stems from a person’s will to live and live beyond the definitions and restrictions we place on ourselves. You make the world what you will and you will be a much happier person than the ghost I see in your eyes.

I write this for both of you. Don’t take anything for granted and fix what you will despite what you believe you protect your pride for.  It is a simple act of love and courage to embrace humility and you will feel more than you think you do. Maybe that’s what’s missing?

I feel you are so easily disappointed that the things you do fails to resonate how you imagine it. One valuable and universal statement I believe in is

It’s not who you are that holds you back, it’s who you think you’re not.  ~Author Unknown

Stop being a debbie downer and get on with it. Be inspired to be different and love who you are, not someone you’re obviously not. I know you for who are and who you are waiting to be, but no one said the journey is easy to self-discovery.

Each and every person has flaws and what matters the most is your resilience, your innovations, and your desire to live as deeply as the ocean contends to with it’s calm but deceptive waves …

dig deep and you’ll find who you are and that you are meant for great things…

Crying doesn’t make me weak

Today is one of those days.

Well, I’m close to tears for all the wrong reasons and I’m okay with that.
What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, right?

I am a hard worker who hates being in a rut. Stagnation freaks me out. Being unsuccessful takes a deep hit to my pride. Not knowing for certain puts me at unease.

So what do I do?

I cry it all out.

Well, maybe my pride is too high for bawling my eyes out but I certainly let the waterworks on.

Let my little garden of dying dreams be nourished by the tears of my failures. With that, let my broken success sprout anew with the passion of a phoenix.

Kill me completely but I’ll rise again.

I see it as this. Cry when you need to, get up and out and put the game face on. These are crucial moments helping you figure out if you are going to make it or break it.

I have known people who go through life, living each day not wanting more than security – Financial and emotional stability. I don’t want to be one of those people in the sense of settling. Settling? Such a foreign concept but everyone experiences it, it’s just a matter of intimating with yourself. I want to be independent and known for my abilities and achievements.

Do you feel that way? Then open yourself completely to introspection.

Business is business and I control the conditions affecting me. Take it for what it is and do your best.

So what will it be? Will you let the things around you break you or make you become a stronger person?

I say , “aye” for the latter.

Here I come World, I’m coming to get you.

Deep in my Soul


Do you know what Plato taught? What his opinion of women was? What he believed in?

Most of my ramblings and writings are taken from daily occurrences and snipped from figments of my imagination. The doctor within me has prescribed me to discover the bits of humor mixed with doses of incredulity.

Sarcasm and dangerous thought have since long eluded me but thus returned to me with new insight. When I am at a loss for words, the essence of meaning fades with the susurrous whisper of self consciousness. I take up the pen to submit uselessness and thoughtlesness to subversion.

Weekend reading helped me reach a higher elevation on the plane of perspicacity. Sophie’s World, an anticipation of abstractions and insights inspires me to reach within and inspect each corner of my integrity, virtue, and individuality. I find comfort in questions such as, “IS what we see what we GET?” ,  “Is there a god above all heavens or are we mere organisms with the fortune & curse to live on earth?”, “Whose speculation is right and why do people believe what they believe in?”

Having no recollection of the end of this novel is good fortune. I’ve been wisped through the ages of history’s thinkers and scold myself for forgetting! Revisiting these ideas takes me back to my classes in junior high and high school and reveals the holes which should be filled with thoughts created on their own.

For me, philosophy is the root of knowledge. Knowledge in the sense of elevating the humanmind from simplicity to a complex operation. it escapse me to why philsophy in general has no true presence in our educational system today, and I believe it has stunted the growth of many would-be leaders. Yes, I agree there is natural selection but some individuals were cultivated into leaders, especially thought leaders. Why do you think there is a mentor and pupil?

Today you see that model in the work world being used to advance professionals in their field of work. But what substance is there when the mind is no longer appreciated but in the confines of a box office world? Thoughts and thinking do not feed the body but the metaphysical body. Can you see the decay? We have the option  to pursue the history of philosophy and I am sure many university students today are only concerned with their dedicated major and aspirations they forget to make space for free and abstract think modes.

It is the same reason that I believe students in school are missing out as a core to their foundation. We all are searching for something in our lives and I believe that people have forgotten our humanistic roots. Can you tell me why you feel so lost and forlorn? It is because world of today has made no change in answering life’s origin. I understand the cynicism and indifference to real living when the people around you have lost touch with themselves and their mind. Good for those who have stayed sane enough to get through each day, since a majority of us will continue to live ordinarily. On another thought, Students in school [i’ve observed this in public universities] continue to place a high priority on learning just enough to make it in the business realm while neglecting their individuality. See, there must be a correlation between the masses who are graduating with degrees and are lost in a career path who end up in something they hate but circumstance keeps them compared to students who have developed their sense of self with no inhibition to how other people think of them. These individuals are the most successful but there is still not enough!

Observe why people join organizations, fraternities, sororities, clubs, professionals networks, business ventures….they feel they must to elevate some level in their lives because what they find is not what they seek.

What do you think of those individuals whom we learn briefly about in our history classes? Who can you name as the father of philsophy, or more specifically how far can you go back in history and name a few who have influenced contemporary thought? Who today is asking life’s greatest questions and mystery?

I exhort you also to take part in the great combat, which is the combat of life, and greater than every other earthly conflict.